Seeing moments of each day in the light of his glory & grace.

"Always- before the King of Kings- Bowing"-
the willow

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

In pursuit of Joy

I've learned that the flow of gratitude brings joy.   When I am feeling low, frustrated, or overwhelmed I whisper to Jesus,  thank you. At first it's just a word. But I say it again. And again. Before I realize it, thankfulness swells in my heart. The joy of the Lord rushes in.

Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Tuesday, March 31, 2015


There it was. Such a small thing but it was causing such pain in my daughters foot.  It was visible yet embedded so deeply beneath the skin there was only one way to get it out.
The process was no picnic- for me!  Most of it was mental and emotional. Her dad knew the pain of getting it out outweighed the result of leaving it there. She shook and tensed with every slight touch of the area. But she knew she had to endure the present discomfort of allowing me and dad to dislodge that 1/2 inch invader. It looked like a mini clinic with the needle, alcohol, magnifying glass, and tweezers strewn across the bathroom sink. It felt like forever. But finally after over an hour of hemming and hawing, crying and "no-ing" she surrendered to the desperate need to be free of that splinter. It took less than 10 min to get it out. Just minutes later she was running around like her vibrant self, like nothing even happened.

Spiritually we carry splinters- small invaders of our emotions and our spirits that hold us captive. Sadly we choose to live with the pain, rather than endure the sometimes painful process of surrendering to the Father. He wants to protect you from infection, that is liable to spread if left untreated.
The process is unpleasant to the flesh because it forces us to face the past that we've tried so hard to bury. It forces us to forgive when we feel we are the victim. It forces us to let go when we want to hold on and convince ourselves we have control. The process is painful as it can reveal even deeper issues we thought we'd gotten over, or didn't even know we had.
But the process is worth the freedom it affords. It's worth the deeper knowledge of our Father we wouldn't know otherwise. It's worth the peace, the freedom, the lifted weight.

If you're ready to experience true healing and peace, surrender to the Father today. Believe he loves you and desires only the best for his children. Let him heal you.

Suggested book: "Christians and Strongholds" by Kim Haney

Saturday, January 10, 2015

" I like that Jesus name. It's so beau-ful."

"Z" was complaining about discomfort in his arms.

 "Mom, I'm skatching too much", he said. 
I told him to get the ointment. As I applied it to his arm I said,

 "It'll be ok, In Jesus name."
He looks at me and goes,

"In Jesus name? I like that Jesus name. It's so beauful."

Yes Z, yes it is.

*Cue heart flutter.*

Thursday, January 8, 2015

The service and the gift

And Hilkiah, and they that the king had appointed, went to Huldah the prophetess, the wife of Shallum the son of Tikvath, the son of Hasrah, keeper of the wardrobe; (now she dwelt in Jerusalem in the college:) and they spake to her to that effect. 2 Chronicles 34:22

Meet Huldah.. In just one verse we are introduced to her by various "hats" that she wears simultaneously each day:
1. Prophetess
2. Wife
3. keeper of the wardrobe*

There are two things that caught my attention- one I did not notice until now as I listed her roles she plays.

The role of Prophetess links her to God. This is first. The role of wife links her to her family. This is second.  I believe it is not mere coincidence that the scripture lists these roles in the order that it did.

*Side note: I'll admit, I originally read the verse as attributing to Huldah the role of "keeper of the wardrobe. this was number three on my list, which I have since scratched after reading the verse a few times over. Still interesting that if this were so, this would be third, putting service to the house of God after family. (Also the reason why I alluded to washing the robes so much below in the post- but I digress : )

The second thing I notice is this. Her service as a wife does not take away from God's desire or ability to use her as a prophetess. 

It is easy to get caught up in titles, and think because God uses me in a certain arena I can not possibly be expected to "wash the robes". 

On the other hand, one can get so caught up in the earthly ministry of washing robes or being a wife and mother, that they feel they are not worthy to be used by God in a spiritually impacting way. 

Both of these schools of thought are far from the truth. God wants to use us. In order to use us we must be humble, meekly surrendered to his will and not our own. 
We must be available. It is not him using our power and abilities. Rather, it is God exercising His power through us. 

We do not have to fear being unworthy or unequipped. 
Neither should we think for a second that anything God does through us has anything to do with what we bring to the table.

God wants us not just as gifted, or as servers. He wants us to be gifted servers, serving God to serve his people.

"and those members of the body, which we think to be less honourable, upon these we bestow more abundant honor...that there should be no schism in the body..." 1 Corinthians 12:24-25